Oh Dear July

20th July 2014

Grandma's Birthday lunch celebration at TPY SAFRA. Its nice to see my family~ absolutely love gatherings like this! 

Vintage shoot with the clique. I look dwarf.

Anyong Haseyo Elsa! You look like a little korean lady here hehehe. Stop frowning will ya? Love you! 

My secondary school with rainbow backdrop. I miss wearing school uniforms. 

Wooden rustic bench where I used to hang around in the past. 

A very sad post

I seemed to be dwelling on something I can't figure exactly what. Need to get this bad feeling off my chest but I can't. It it uncomfortable. It is exhausting. My brain is feeding my body, heart and soul with negativity.

Maybe... I was thinking maybe it's the blog. The blog that you did not open up to me.. I know what you're thinking. Not again.. Is she serious.. Crazywomaning again.. I understand that it may not seem as much of a big deal to you since it happened so long ago.. but honestly---it was quite a shock for me. You probably did not have any intention of hiding it from me or showing me in the first place. It was a mistake that I found your blog. Remember you once mentioned your 10% sadness was concealed  in a diary when we first started out this relationship? I'm guessing this is it. This must be your diary as i eyeballed your post titles. Honestly I have been wanting to read it ever since you told me. The urge to help you overcome all these sadness and comfort you with all my might was my top priorities. Never had i thought that it was me, partly, that caused you these miseries. And truthfully speaking, i thought that you were genuinely happy when we were together.. It's just upsetting to know that.. i wasn't enough to cheer you up.Perhaps this is not what i thought it is and they're just words punched harshly out of spite. Right? You know, the saddest part of all these was that you actually deleted a few posts. What is so secretive or depressing that you have to keep it to yourself. Are you protecting my feelings? Are you protecting yourself? If you had another chance, would you show them to me? Despite knowing I might be sad? Or delete them once more?

I want you to know that i'm writing all these not because i am angry. I am just a little sad and confused y'know. Regardless of all of these nonsense i still love you. Of course i do. Everyone is allowed to hide some feelings. Everyone has the right to keep things to themselves. I understand. I really love you. I really do.

Phony

The title of my blog has nothing to do with its content. I could say its just a play of words? Just because its my first time blogging through my phone. Hehe. What an experience~ Feeling all giddy while typing cause of this bumpy ride. (Or is it my motion sickness?) Anyway, holidays are over and I need to bury myself in thick textbooks again..which will..probably not happen. Tougher modules await me to tackle this sem. *Flex muscles* I can do this. And also, finally visiting Liyi tomorrow. I absolutely can't wait to see baby...Elsa! You were expecting yourself right! I love babies..and you already know. Time passes so quickly. Can you believe its already mid July? Accomplished many these few months. Glad that I settled well in school for the past semester. I honestly thought I would do badly or become an anti-social freak or something. But it turns out I am doing just fine, at least for now! Most importantly, I am getting an idea of my direction in life thanks to your guidance *Heaved a sigh of euphoric relief* Lets make it happen. 

Lets look at some pictures from the month of June! Zhang Shen Guni Guni~

Hello Astons! Last meal of our airport food trip! 

Mandatory shot at airport

Look at this cutie pie honey bun! Waffles ice cream at west coast mall.

Ms Yen Yen I love you!

Attended this silly's Graduation! Hooray! 

Casual day to Jurong West market with family. *Shy*

Covering soccer event at Katong112.

Picnic with Kailing.

I am loving everything,

Xiaojun

Fluffness?

Hey baby! I miss you terribly. I haven't been accompanying you lately due to my exams and I am so sorry about that. Let me compensate by ^^. HEH. I know you want it human. No denying human. BUAHAHA. And I, the Fluffness, shall grant you your well deserved reward. But before that, let me post some pictures. 

There you go, all pictures with my teeth showing. I know you like them. 

You shall accept my kiss, through this royal parrot. 

I shall reward you a picture of me. Keep it safe, it shall bring you fortunes when the time arrives.

Your Fluffness, Peh Xiao Jun, 

 11 December 1992,

21st century. 

I love you Dennis. Muacks. 

And so...

  

Instead of studying..I'm thinking of you again~ I miss you so very much. This week has been good to me so far. Just a little lonely and empty with the absence of your smile, touch and presence. Words can't express how I feel, neither do I have a picture to tell the world and anyone else how much I love you. I love you beyond anything in this vast universe. Excited as ever for your next book out. See you soon darling. 

I'll continue thinking of you.

One of many milestones.

I'm so glad to announce that tomorrow will be the day you pass out from Tekong! It must have been a tough 4 months of strenuous military training for you. No doubt in this period you have grown healthier, fitter and sexier *shy* from these everyday-exercises. At the same time you have also met some great, crazy and funny fellows in your platoon. To have known that you guys went through all the hard times together during training, you people must have been so bonded! Hahaha I genuinely hope your friendship with them will last (: And in this very moment where I am typing away, you are marching from miles to miles to reach the destination. It must be tiring for you and I know you are doing well. I am so proud of you (: Congratulations on your POP dearest.